By the time I got to making Black Swan,the experience was entirely my own,I felt immune to the worst things anyone could say or write about me. And to whether the audience felt like to see my movie or not.It was instructive for me to see ballet dancers,once your technique gets to a certain level,the only thing that separates you from others is your quirks or flaws.(怪异甚至瑕疵).One ballerina was famous for how she turned slightly off balanced.You can never be the best,technically.Someone will always have a higher jump or a more beautiful line.The only thing you can be the best at is developing your own self.Authoring your own experience was very much what Black Swan itself was about.I worked with Darren Aronofsky the director whom changed my last line in the movie to:It was perfect.Because my characte Nina is only artistically successful when she finds perfection and pleasure for herself,not when she was trying to be perfect in the eyes of others.So when Black Swan was successful financially and I began receiving accolades.I felt honored and grateful to have connected with people.But the true core of my meaning I had already established.And I needed it to be independent of people’s reacti