mselfout.hedrowned,onlytwenty-eightyearsold,marriedtwoyearsandeightmonths,onlysevenmonthsofwhichhehadentwithmother.
thatbriefsketchisaboutallieverreallyknewaboutmyfather.allmylifeihavebeenhungrytofillintheblanks,clingingeagerlytoeveryphotoorstoryorscrapofpaperthatwouldtellmemoreofthemanwhogavemelife.wheniwasabouttwelve,sittingonmyunclebuddy''sporchinhope,amanwalkeduptheste,lookedatme,andsaid,you''rebillblythe''sson.youlookjustlikehim.?ibeamedfordays.
in1974,iwasruingforcongre.itwasmyfirstraceandthelocalpaperdidafeaturestoryonmymother.shewasatherregularcoffeeshopearlyinthemorningdiscuingthearticlewithalawyerfriendwhenoneofthebreakfastregularssheknewonlycasuallycameuptoherandsaid,"iwasthere,iwasthefirstoneatthewreckthatnight.?"hethentoldmotherwhathehadseen,includingthefactthatmyfatherhadretainedenoughcocioueorsurvivalitincttotrytoclawhimselfupandoutofthewaterbeforehedied.motherthankedhim,wentouttohercarandcried,thendriedhertearsandwenttowork.
in1993,onfather''sday,myfirstaspresident,thewashingtonpostranalonginvestigativestoryonmyfather,whichwasfollowedoverthenexttwomonthsbyotherinvestigativepiecesbytheaociatedpreandmanysmallerpapers.thestoriesconfirmedthethingsmymotherandiknew.theyalsoturnedupalotwedidn''tknow,includingthefactthatmyfatherhadprobablybeenmarriedthreetimesbeforehemetmother,andaarentlyhadatleasttwomorechildren.
myfather''sothersonwasidentifiedasleonritzenthaler,aretiredownerofajanitorialservice,fromnortherncalifornia.inthearticle,hesaidhehadwrittenmeduringthe?2campaignbuthadreceivednoreply.idon''trememberhearingabouthisletter,andcoideringalltheotherbulletsweweredodgingthen,it''spoiblethatmystaffkeptitfromme.ormaybetheletterwasjustmilacedinthemountaiofmailwewerereceiving.anyway,whenireadaboutleon,igotintouchwithhimandlaterm